Getting ready

I plopped Jax in the front seat because I had to buckle his car seat in. Daddy grabbed the camera because he thought he looked so cute, its not often that he is sitting up so tall!

My emotions are all over the place today. You wouldn't believe the emotions involved in adoption! Some days I'm so excited to go, to hold my baby girl, and to see a country that I would have never visited on a vacation. Other days I don't want to leave my boys, I think of every little thing that could possibly happen. I know parents leave their children with family all the time and go on trips. But we've never done that yet, so its new to us to. Our boys do just about everything with us. Also, this trip is so far out of my comfort zone its not even funny! I do think that's a good thing, it will make me stronger, and make me realize that I can survive being in another country. One good thing, I think we are on the same flight as another RR family, which will be really nice. We can go through customs together, and have another American family to talk to!

I know I am prepared as I can be to leave the boys, especially Jax. Although the boys will miss us because they've never been away from us for more than a day, they will have so much fun with my sister that they don't see often. Their cousins will be here with them, again, they only see them once or twice a year. It will be like a big vacation for them too. All of Jax stuff is ready for us to go. We are getting another vent, and all his supplies set up at Auntie Boo's house for the days she has him. She knows his medical history really well, and she's been coming over and doing his routines with me. She's also taken him for the day to remind herself of how to take care of him. She is coming with me to my ped's office today to meet her, because they will be in close contact while I'm gone. We are doing some labs today, because his tend to be off, so we will try and fix that before I go. Brandon is going to come down when my sister has Jax. He will answer any questions she may think of, and do vitals on him to make sure he is as healthy as he can be!

But yesterday I was getting paranoid that he was going to get sick while we are gone. Mostly because I realized that we are in the beginning of flu season. Flu shots are being given at the grocery stores already. It doesn't help that I talked to a friend that has a daughter thats been sick. We were talking about chest x-rays and rocefin, that just made me super paranoid. Again, if he gets sick, he is in good hands. There's nothing I can do if I was here that I can't do over the phone. My ped is in control of his care. We started his tobi treatments, just trying to do everything we can to keep him healthy.

I have my chronic mom way of tweaking his equipment to make it work for us. He can't use a nebulizer, because he needs to have oxygen bled in, he desats without it. I tried plugging his tubing into his concentrator, but for some reason it wasn't working. There must be not back pressure control on the concentrator. So I had home care bring me out some E tanks, I bought a high flow regulator online for a mere 30 dollars. Wala, an oxygen neb!

Friends, I just ask for extra prayers over these next couple of weeks. They are so helpful, and I know that it will keep me calm and collected as we go on this adventure to bring our girl home!