Saturday, May 29, 2010

Memorial weekend indeed!

How fitting that this weekend is Memorial weekend. People are out camping and playing with family and friends. We remember soldiers that died for their country, and people that have passed on.
I got to meet an amazing warrior for the first time today. We had planned to get together. We would let each other know when we had doctors appointments. To see if we could by chance meet up. And it had just never happened yet. But today may be the only time I get to see him, so I cherished every minute. Tomorrow we will see what Gods plan for sweet Carter is. They will take him off life support and see if he is meant to fly home, or meant to stay with his family for a while longer.

I also got this email from a friend two days ago. Again, its timing eerily clear. You may have heard it. I had not, but its beautiful...
Not too long ago in Heaven there was a little soul who took wonder in observing the world. He especially enjoyed the love he saw there and often expressed this joy with God. One day however the little soul was sad, for on this day he saw suffering in the world. He approached God and sadly asked, "Why do bad things happen; why is there suffering in the world?" God paused for a moment and replied, "Little soul, do not be sad, for the suffering you see, unlocks the love in people's hearts." The little soul was confused. "What do you mean," he asked. God replied, "Have you not noticed the goodness and love that is the offspring of that suffering? Look at how people come together, drop their differences and show their love and compassion for those who suffer. All their other motivations disappear and they become motivated by love alone." The little soul began to understand and listened attentively as God continued, "The suffering soul unlocks the love in people's hearts much like the sun and the rain unlock the flower within the seed. I created everyone with endless love in their heart, but unfortunately most people keep it locked up and hardly share it with anyone. They are afraid to let their love shine freely, because they are afraid of being hurt. But a suffering soul unlocks that love. I tell you this - it is the greatest miracle of all. Many souls have bravely chosen to go into the world and suffer - to unlock this love - to create this miracle for the good of all humanity."

Just then the little soul got a wonderful idea and could hardly contain himself. With his wings fluttering, bouncing up and down, the little soul excitedly replied. "I am brave; let me go! I would like to go into the world and suffer so that I can unlock the goodness and love in people's hearts! I want to create that miracle!" God smiled and said, "You are a brave soul I know, and thus I will grant your request. But even though you are very brave you will not be able to do this alone. I have known since the beginning of time that you would ask for this and so I have carefully selected many souls to care for you on your journey. Those souls will help you create your miracle; however they will also share in your suffering. Two of these souls are most special and will care for you, help you and suffer along with you, far beyond the others. They have already chosen a name for you". God and the brave soul shared a smile, and then embraced.

In parting, God said, "Do not forget little soul that I will be with you always. Although you have agreed to bear the pain, you will do so through my strength. And if the time should come when you feel that you have suffered enough, just say the word, think the thought, and you will be healed." Thus at that moment the brave little soul was born into the world, and through his suffering and God's strength, he unlocked the goodness and love in people's hearts. For so many people dropped their differences and came together to show their love. Priorities became properly aligned. People gave from their hearts. Those that were always too busy found time. Many began new spiritual journeys, some regained lost faith - many came back to God. Parents hugged their children tighter. Friends and family grew closer. Old friends got together and new friendships were made. Distant family reunited, and every family spent more time together. Everyone prayed. Peace and love reigned. Lives changed forever. It was good. The world was a better place. The miracle had happened. God was pleased.

I teared up because I could totally picture my Jaxson up in heaven, saying that he wanted to come down to earth, to suffer, so that it would make the world a better place. Indeed he has done his job. I wouldn't have met the people I've met without Jax. I wouldn't know sweet Carter and his momma if I never had Jax.

So we wear our Team Carter bracelets, and pray tomorrow that everything goes according to Gods plan. We will miss sweet Carter, but he will be whole, and tube free, and able to run and play with his angel friends!

Also when I came home and got on the computer to write this post. I see that sweet Ben has also earned his wings today. Ben was one of the first kids to get a blankie. And the first kid I got to hand deliver a blankie to. He was stuck in our PICU, accross the country from home. His mom is so sweet, and not to long ago she was here again and we got to have breakfast together. We love you Ben and your sweet mom Becky!

Memorial weekend indeed. Please remember these families in your prayers this holiday weekend!

13 comments:

Colleen said...

What a wonderful picture of you with Carter. He must be even more beautiful in person:) I'm so glad that you were able to be there and support his Momma. I am praying for God's plan for tomorrow.

Heather said...

Crying,of course.Have read this before,but for some reason,today,it hit me hard.

Praying for Carter and his family.Praying for Ben and his family as well.And praying for you,my sweet friend,whose heart is full of so much love and goodness.And to Uncle Ray,who still wears "his girls",bracelet,love to him as well.Can't wait to give you both big hugs in a week.

Please say some extra prayers for Presley.today has not been the best of days.

To Love Endlessly said...

very touching and beautiful. Sure did need a box of tissues. I'll be praying.

Kelly said...

Both Ben and Carter and their families are in our thoughts and prayers!

Mama Mason-Mann said...

that was very sweet. Jax is a very brave soul indeed. And so are you!

My thoughts are wtih Carter's family. I'm glad you got to meet him. And my thoughts are with Ben's family as well. No parent should have to lose a child! Whether it seems to make sense or not, it can't be any easier.

Junior said...

Lacey the picture of you and carter is Beautiful. Our prayers are with carter and his family.
We were just heartbroken to hear about Ben this morning and are praying for his family.
Hug Jax for us.

ANewKindOfPerfect said...

Lacey I am absolutely bawling! I cannot believe this ... two in one weekend is too much.

I was so shocked when I read Ben's blog. I cannot believe it. :( And then to read about Carter ... it's just too much.

You are so lucky to have gotten the chance to meet Carter today.

Mike said...

So nice to meet you guys today. Thankyou for all you have done foe our little guy!

Carters Dad

CFMama said...

Praying for both families, and especially for Carter and Ben.

Rochelle said...

Praying for both families. Thank you for your sweetness in caring and helping these families on their walks.

The VW's said...

My heart is feeling so heavy for both of these families! I pray that God gives them comfort, peace and strength today and always! This weekend is definitely a time of remembrance! Love and Hugs!!!

Alicia said...

So glad you were able to meet Carter. He truly was a beautiful spirit.

I have been, and will continue to, pray for Ben's and Carter's families. It has got to be so hard being the ones left behind.

Suzie said...

Oh Lacey I don't have words...