Back to school, way to early

As you can see, Tanner was less than thrilled to go back to school today. I feel the same. This is way to early to be going back to school. I hate it, not only are my sisters still in town, and I'm having to run around and get school supplies. It makes me feel like summer is over. And I'm not ready for it to be over. We still have two small trips planned.

Ugh. And then Tanner had a complete meltdown. I had to drag him to the car. I gave him his anxiety pill, because I saw that he was going to meltdown. But it didn't help. Mondo had to pull him out of the backseat for me when we got to school. And then when we dropped Mondo off, he wouldn't go in with his class. I was carrying Jax, sweating profusely, utterly embarassed by my kid, who no one knows is autistic. I left him outside and went to find his resource teacher. We were chasing each other around. I finally got him inside the school, screaming bloody murder. Then I saw his resource teacher running down the hall. She heard him. She has been so amazing with him. She's the only reason he hasn't been pulled out of this school yet. So I left him with her, screaming in the hall.

I am completely at my whits end. I can't do this all year. I'm thinking he needs to be pulled out of a regular classroom. Now its just where do I put him? The autism school has a huge waiting list. I think the only thing is a cluster class through the school district. I do know another autistic child in one of those. Its a smaller class and all special needs kids. I mean, is any kid in his class going to like him when they see him throwing a fit? Its just the right ammo for kids to tease him.

I'm telling you, I'm about two seconds away from a nervous breakdown. I go to my ped today to discuss stuff thats going on with Jax, the fact that we still haven't heard from Boston. Now I get to bring up my autistic son and were to put him in school.

Happy Monday everyone.