Saturday, May 4, 2013

Never get too comfortable!

I guess Jax felt like we were getting a bit too comfortable, and we had let our guard down. Well now it's back up, and back up big time!
This little baby now sits on the back of Jax crib, instead of in its bag, hanging on his supply shelf.

A couple mornings ago, Jax was still in bed, although awake. I was getting Arina's breakfast, when Jax alarm went off. I didn't rush up there, because when he's awake, he tends to alarm more with his wiggly feet and its always a false reading. But as I walked into his room, I could hear him gasping for breath.
He had a plug in his trach.
Its never happened this fast, ever. In the two minutes it took me to get into his room, his airway was completely closed, and he was blue. I grabbed my spare trach, which is right there next to his bed. But he was already starting to lose consciousness! Thats when I panicked just for a millisecond. I wanted to get his ambu bag, so I could give him rescue breaths, but I also knew the trach had to come out. He has never lost consciousness on me before, NEVER! But the ambu bag was not within my reach, so my shaky hands hurried and got the clean trach out and the obturator in, so I could switch trachs. I was able to do it and get him on his vent before he completely passed out. But it was horrible!

I've seen Jax blue at home before. He can be a naughty, naughty boy! But he rarely gets a plug, in fact, he never had a plug the first two years he had the trach. Only in the last 6 months have I had to do emergency trach changes for a plug.
I feel like I've seen just about everything. Between what Jax has done in the hospital, and when I used to work there, I've pretty much seen it all. I've helped with CPR on kids, I've seen Jax code. I've seen his heart rate drop so low, that I think his heart is just going to stop!
I've always been able to remain calm. I've been told in those situations with Jax that I was amazingly calm.
I wouldn't say I wasn't calm on this morning. I worked quickly to do what needed to be done. But deep down inside my soul I was screaming! I was completely and utterly in a panic!
Some people said, oh I wouldn't have been able to do that. Yes you would, when its your child, you would. This is why there is extensive training in the hospital before you can bring a child with a trach home. Add the ventilator and you add another 3 days of training. Although I already had the training, that didn't mean that I was off the hook. I had to sit through that training just like daddy did. And its for these exact situations that they teach you all you need to know!

I guess that was a wake up call. Its been a while since Jax has done something like that. He just wanted to make sure we were always prepared for what may happen next. And to never forget how fragile life really is


Rochelle said...

Ugh, that makes my heart race right along with you. Glad he has you for a mommy and you did what you needed to do!

The VW's said...

How scary!!! Glad you got to him quickly and all went well in the end! Tell Jax that's enough excitement for a very long time!! Behave yourself Jax! Hugs!!!

Twilson9608 said...

Oh Jax!! Your not suppose to scare us all like that! I'm so glad your doing better, sweet boy.

Anonymous said...

Praise God you are his mother...

Leah said...

Oh my word. What an enormous scare. So glad you were able to keep calm enough to get him through.