When is the time ever right?

You may know that we are thinking of adding another princess to our house. We actually knew we would add one more princess not long after Arina was home. We talked and decided that after we moved, and had been in our home a year, we would start talking about it again.

Ahem, well we are not in our own home, yet the talk is here.
You can't help yourself, I mean, how can you?

This little girl screamed every time we bathed her for the first 3 months she was home. I felt like I was traumatizing my baby just trying to get her clean!

She had never had a bath, never in her life. She was quickly scrubbed down with a rag, because there were multiple children, and only a few people to bathe them. When I think about the life she would have had, I cringe. That is not something that leaves your mind!

I blame daddy.
Well, it sounds like a good excuse!
But he did fall in love first, and he dragged me right down with him.
With this little peanut, Ruth.
I wish I could make the picture big, but my computer refuses! Her Jaxson fohawk is what first sucked me in.
Funny thing is, daddy found her first, but she is exactly what I wanted. I wanted a child that needed a home a little more urgently because of medical problems. I want to use my experience, take children that other people are a little more afraid to take, because of my training and experience. She has a heart condition, and is said to have malnutrition. But every heart mom knows what malnutrition is in a heart kid, heart failure.
My first worry is a big one. Our last adoption we only raised about 4,000 of the 20,000 we spent on the adoption. We had taken a home equity loan to redo our yard and a few other things, and were able to use some of that money. Not long after our adoption, people started raising crazy amounts. I always joke that we adopted at the wrong time. I mean, people were raising 15,000+ on a single giveaway! Unfortunately, she went up on Reeces Rainbow after the Christmas Warriors started, so she missed out on that extra fundraising. Thats not going to stop us from the child we feel is ours. We just don't have the home equity loan to dive into if we don't raise the full amount. Scary thought!
For all you that may not know, most of us adoptive families have plenty to give to an additional child. But not too many people have 20,000+ sitting in a bank account to spend on the initial costs. I am not touching money I have in emergency accounts, as no one should. That is needed for just that, an emergency!
And of course we haven't bought our house yet. When I said we weren't adopting yet because we are still renting, many people asked why? Well, I guess I don't really have to, many people that adopt are renting. And while I feel like this house is too small for us, I do know of some adoptive families that have many more children in the same square feet we have now. So I guess I'm not really sure why that matters. The house will probably be bought and moved into before we are even able to travel, since this process takes months.

So we are giving ourselves a little time to talk, ponder, and pray, if this is the right time. We can't wait much longer though, because this muffin doesn't have the time to waste!
Just like this other little muffin, I'd like to get her to a loving home ASAP