Hold on for a scary roller coaster ride!

I noticed today that Jax seemed to be a little worse. I was beginning to wonder if indeed he has caught something. The chest x-ray was read pneumonia, but like I said he probably aspirated when he vomited. But my ped called me tonight from home. That's never a good sign! Jaxson has metapneumo virus, which is a sister virus to RSV. We have one sick puppy on our hands, and we are in the beginning stages of it all.

I'm already starting to see his systems shutting down. He's not digesting his food, he's very pale and has nice purple eyes. My ped wants me to watch him closely to make sure he doesn't get shocky. Which would be a nice grey color. She also reminded me with his severe hypotonia he may not increase his respiratory rate, it may just shut down altogether. He's not fully asleep in these pics, just exhausted. Which is whats scaring me already. He has already worn himself out from the coughing constantly, which leaves no reserve for the respiratory crap that's to come. We will probably be heading in for a blood gas tomorrow to try and catch him before he totally poops out on us.

Please pray for my fragile man tonight! This could be one heck of a roller coaster ride. My ped asked me on the phone if he is still a full code, and if we had filled out the paperwork for what our wishes are, because she will be out of town all next week. And although I wonder why they keep asking me this, I have to remember that it's an insurance policy. The nice thing about the trach is we can avoid traumatic intubations. But once we are vented we get lines, sepsis, and other nasty things!