Tired!!

Oh man I am tired. So so tired.

It's a dang good thing this is the only hospitalization, besides an overnighter, since daddy's been in Cali. There's only one of me, and everything to be done. Daddy is not here to go up to the hospital, or be home with the boys. He comes home Friday. Even though I'm super excited that Auntie Boo's hubby got a job in Cali so we can be close, she beat us there. So we don't have her to come sit with Jax when I can't be there.
I had to leave him at 4:30 today, so I could come home and do laundry and dishes, and get some groceries. I took the boys to get a sno cone at the sno shack, since they've been cooped up inside for 3 days. So packing, uh, I guess that will be done the night before we move!

Jax also had a rough day. I got there, and he was on double the oxygen he was on yesterday. The ambubag was out and on his bed, so I asked if something had happened. His RT said that he just desatted pretty low for a bit. She said it was probably a plug. I said he doesn't get plugs, that its his sick lungs trying to work when he's sick. He was wretching and gagging on full J feeds, and his belly was up 5 cm from yesterday. Feeds were turned off, and the doctor called. He just said to hold feeds for 2 hours, and restart and see how he does. He hasn't said much about the oxygen need increase. I called pulmo to have her look at his x ray. She said you can see aspiration, and also pulmonary edema. She thinks that because his cardiovascular system is so weak, that aspirating has really messed it up and he's leaking fluid into his lungs. His heart is also bigger. I told her that he was mottled and sleepy. She thinks his heart may need some help. That would mean going to the PICU for pressors. Going to the PICU wouldn't be such a bad thing. He hasn't been on the floor in over a year, only the PICU, so I forget how hard it is to get doctors to do things. If he was in the PICU and I said he was mottled and yucky, they'd be all over that.
I'm a bit ADD normally. I think that's how I handle so many different things at once. I like to be moving constantly. Lord knows we've had much longer and scarier hospital stays. But I can't believe how depleted I feel tonight. I can't wait to climb in bed and sleep!

Our princess has a birthday on Sunday. We have decided that since everything is utter chaos right now, that we will have a birthday party on her gotcha day, in November.
And because I need some smiles, and I'm so excited I got the princess to sign for the camera, here is a super cute video of her. Its kind of long and shaky, but well worth the watch!!