The mommy radar is a dinging!

My mommy/nurse radar is going off like crazy right now. Something is just not right with Jax. I hate when he pulls this. So far his oxygen need is baseline. But his color is horrid. He's white as a ghost, and his lips are either blue, or as white as his face. They are also chapped and dry, something that happens when things are just not right. He's not sleeping well at night, he wakes up at 6 every morning, coughing like crazy! He doesn't usually cough as much on the vent, because the positive pressure keeps his airway open. He's lost weight in his waist and legs, but his face and chest remain the same. His little hips are poking out big time. The bad part is with him it could be so many different things. It could be heart, pulmonary hypertension, or remember he went without his blood thinner for two days in Cali, maybe he threw another clot somewhere. Looks like tomorrow we'll be paying a visit to our ped, and probably getting oodles of bloodwork!
This picture doesn't show how he really looks. What I need to do is put Arina next to him, so you can see the difference. But he's very pale, and its hard to see where his lips start because they are so white.

I think in every post I say we've been so busy, but the busy keeps on going! My house should be listed tomorrow or Tuesday! Finally, it should have been listed months ago, but I'm telling you I smack anyone who says its not hard alone with 5 kids to get it ready! My dilemma still is what to do about a real estate agent. I have a friend that is looking for a bigger house that wants to come look before we list it. Of course it would save us both a boatload of money if she buys it! But I just worry that her house doesn't sell soon, then we both have to wait to close.
And if she doesn't want it, I don't have time to sell it myself, but also can't pay 15,000 to a real estate agent (I also really don't think they do 15,000 in work, honestly!) So we'll see how it all plays out.
This weekend Carter had his last baseball games in Utah. Its sad, but I can't wait for him to be able to play all year in Cali. No snow break there!

Best catcher in the league!

My two sisters are here, one from Oklahoma, and one from California. My one sister has 4 girls, the other, one little girl. So my moms house went from 99% testosterone, to almost all estrogen! Of course Arina is loving little girls to play with. And I love seeing my beautiful nieces!

Sadie
My oh-so-beautiful Hailey. Those eyelashes and cheeks are just plain yummy!!


Arya, she has a mass in her brain, right behind her eye. It caused seizures, which are controlled for now. And although they are almost positive the mass is not cancer, it may have to come out, which would be brain surgery. So we are hoping the neurosurgeon has some good news!

baby Olivia!


I missed pictures of my little Evie, I'll have to get some tomorrow!

Oh, and our friend Gabe is doing much better. He's off sedation and off the vent. Thanks to everyone's prayers!