If your tired of my whining, click off now.

I took Jax to his ped this morning. My main concerns were 1. He's been extremely pale, and dusky when he cries. 2. I noticed last night that stool is leaking underneath the bandage. 3. His extreme crankiness and screaming in pain fits he has.

She was going to call the surgeon, but she ordered a bunch of test first so she could pass on the info. They did an x-ray of his belly and chest. Because of the blue spells and his heart murmer is louder. They did a CBC to check his white count. That would help if he has an infection. His white count was ok, and she didn't see anything on the x-rays. His heart is a little bigger, so we'll have to watch that.

The surgeon said we needed to get a CT of his belly to look for abcesses. He said leakage is normal (thanks for telling me) so I had to run up to the hospital after I left her office to get the CT. The radiologist said he didn't see any abcesses, so I walked up to the surgery clinic to see how to change his dressing. The nurse also thought he looked pale. We changed the dressing. There was a little piece of gauze that had been sutured in, but it was soaked with stool so they cut the suture and pulled it out. We are watching him closely. We can't figure out why he is in so much pain, you brush your finger against his belly and he screams. But he has no signs of infection yet, so we watch. Great.

This is when he fell asleep on the futon after I had to put him down and walk away to keep from losing my mind. He'd been screaming for an hour.

The face of Jax these days.

The new huge dressing.

Why does it feel like things go great for a while and then God piles everything on you at once? I know they say he doesn't give you more than you can handle but I beg to differ. We only have one car right now. Rays motorcycle is having problems, my dad can fix it but its finding time for my dad to come over. Then it needs to be inspected and registered. Our other car needs to be registered but we thought we had some time because Ray rides his bike in the summer, but now thats out. The other car needs a battery, a windshield, and needs to be registered. How am I going to pay for all this stuff, if I take him to work I have to take him at 6 in the morning. And he has school on Mondays and Wednsdays, how is he going to get there? He is not quiting school. He's quit three times because every time he starts something happens to Jax and the whole world falls apart. I am about at nervous breakdown level. I've had a few people offer to bring dinner. I usually say no, I don't like to be a burden, but after the day I had today, I think I will give in and let people help. I can't afford fast food every night.

Sorry for all my whiny posts.